beauty gives you everything

sayusofi @ 2007-08-28T15:40:00

2007-05-28T21:42:12Z

this weekend and today have been disgusting.
i fuckin ate so much.
i think i used to b stronger and have more self-control..
i have to go back on track. tomorrow will b a better day.

juice fasting

2007-05-25T02:44:56Z

im on my second day of juice fasting.. all the juices are made by me :D
its pretty easy and i feel good! and i added soy protein powder so that my muscle arent going to disappere and some diet fiber.

today i had
B- Orange Apple juice (210kcal)
L- Melon Strawberry juice (110kcal)
D- 0kcal
Total: 320kcal
Gym: burned 400kcal

tomorrow i will do the same thing!
I will stop juice fasting saturday night and sunday coz i will have a dinner where i have to eat, and water fast monday!

hope everyone is doing fine!

xoxo

sayusofi @ 2007-08-21T17:02:00

2007-05-21T23:02:51Z

i did terrible this weekend from friday to sunday!!
its coz im about to have my period and that makes me eat like a fatass!! coz of this weekend im at 49kg(108pounds)again..

that means that i have to lose 6 pounds in 5 days!!

Today i had
B- Yogurt 50kcal, diet cocoa 25kcal
L- light peach juice 35kcal
D- baby carrots 20kcal cauliflower 20kcal and 2 bites of beef(about 30kcal)

Total: about 180kcal

Gym: burn 450kcal(spinning)

sayusofi @ 2007-05-19T18:01:00

2007-05-20T01:08:45Z

ugg i hate when i am about to get my period.. makes me want to eat soo much..

i have to lose 4 pounds in 8 days and i took like 900kcal today. im a pig. i burned 550kcal at the gym but still.. disgusting!

i will shoot myself if i dont weight less than 103 pounds for next friday.

Im going to burn 550kcal everyday and take less than 300kcal.

uggg im loosing my will power coz of my Pre-Menstrual Syndrome!!

i gotta stay strong!

i wanna puke so badly

2007-05-19T03:56:01Z

today i burned about 600kcal in the gym, but i ate like a pig.. Literally!
im not gonna write down everything i ate coz it will take me forever but i know i took about 1600-2000 kcal. ugg i hate to go out with my bg sometimes coz he makes me eat a LOT!!

i tried to puke already but as usual i couldnt.. my stomach hurts..

according to this site(http://www.inch-aweigh.com/dcn.php) i need about 1747kcal daily to maintain my weight.. so i guess 1747kcal is what i burn just by surviving and doing sedentary work.
if i add 1747kcal + 600kcal(burned at the gym) = 2347(what i burned today)
is that right?
so 2000(kcal taken) - 2347(kcal burned) = -347kcal(kcal taken away from my fat) is this right?? so i didnt gain any fat today.. did i ?
omg this is so confusing!

anyway, there r 8 days left for prom, and i have to loose 4 pounds more!!

47.8

2007-05-18T03:29:07Z

i weight 47.8kg.. thats about 105pounds :D thats one good thing! but i have to loose 4 pounds more (1.8kg) in 8days.. will i ?

I guess i have been doing a good job with the diet i invented but i dont really feel the changes.. lol

yesterday i had,
B- 3 light breads, cottage cheese, 2 turkey ham, papaya and one kellog's bar(400kcal..ewww disgusting)
L- Prune + Vegetarian Salad in subway (300kcal)
D-Skipped
Total: about 750 calories
GYM- 50min spinning (458kcal burned)
750-458 = about 300kcal

Today i had(liquids)
B- liquid yogurt, diet cocoa (100kcal)
L- Peach Juice (70kcal)
D- Diet cocoa, Fruit Juice(papaya, melon, banana)(about 225kcal)
I made some cup cake for my family but i ended up eating some..(50kcal)
Total: 450kcal

I will do 60min of spinning tomorrow( - 550kcal)

i hope i will be weighting about 47kg for Monday

xoxo

grr

2007-05-16T02:15:42Z

today several things happened..

#1 i was in the cafeteria at lunch and the nurse came to me and told me that i have to show her what i eat EVERY SINGLE DAY at school. if u could have seen my face.. i was like WTTTFFFFF?!?!?! well anyway, i'll show her some food and throw it away or give it to someone else later..

#2 48.3kg.... shiiiiit... NOT GOOD AT ALL!! well, thingking that i havent poop for like 3 days(coz my mom found out about my laxatives) and i had like a bottle of water in my stomach maybe its not that bad.. right?

#3 today i had about 400kcal... AGAIN NOT GOOD AT ALL!! and it was suppose to be a liquid fast..
its my mom's fault coz she made me steamed fish and i ate a LOT of papaya..
today i had..
B- Liquid Yogurt + Diet Chocolate with 1/2 skimmed milk(55kcal + 40kcal)
L- Peach Juice Light (35kcal)
D- Steamed fish + veggies (100kcal + 80kcal)
Papaya (30kcal)
Onion (40kcal)
total: 400kcal rounded..

and i went to the gym and burned about 200kcal..

tomorrow i will do better

xoxo

good start

2007-05-15T01:50:29Z

today is monday and it was a good start ;D
not really according to plan coz i went to my bf's house and usually my bf makes me eat Very Much.. but i told him that i ate shrimps yesterday and my stomach was kinda sick.. so he didnt force me to eat but he did force me to drink fruit juice!

i didnt have anything at all yesterday!
and today, i had
B- Veggies (120kcal rounded)
L- Milk Tea (not skimmed so 100 rounded)
D- Fruit juice (100)
total: 350 rounded

so, not that bad.. so so..

supposely i burn 1400kcal per day just by surviving so.. not very bad i guess!

Tommorow i will liquid fast and if i NEED to, i will have oatmeal..

xoxo

Plan!

2007-05-13T04:52:12Z

ok, this is my plan to lose 7 pounds in 2 weeks. i have to lose 3.5pounds per week. so i think its possible, not that hard.. is it?

Sunday - Fast
Monday - Negative calorie fruit (less than 100kcal)
Tuesday - Negative calorie veggie (less than 100kcal)
Wed - 1 powerbar(90kcal)
Thursday- Liquid Fast 1 soy milk(protein)
Friday - less than 300kcal(coz i usually take more calories on weekends)
Sat - Liquid Fast 1 milk (calcium)

do u think i will lose 7 pounds if i do this diet for 14days? is there something wrong with my plan? plz feel free to comment!!!

xoxo

My stats
5'1 - 5'2 im not good at converting. im 156cm
CW 107pounds 48.5kg
HW 126 56kg
LW 96 44kg
GW 94 42kg

food.... :(

2007-05-12T16:54:57Z

food is my worst enemy, i swear!

Thursday - Nothing at all
Friday - Veggies 200kcal
1/2 diet crackers with turkey ham 60 kcal
1 diet cookie 90kcal
1/2 Chef Salad at denny's 200kcal
total: about 600kcal
Sat(today) - its 9 o'clock and i have eaten
1 power bar 90kcal
5 lil pieces of chocolate 250kcal
veggies 150kcal
total: about 500 kcal

what the fuck is wrong with me???????

i think im really stressed coz my mom found out about my laxatives..
my stomach if filled with food and it feels Disgusting!!

sayusofi @ 2007-05-12T09:20:00

2007-05-12T16:20:32Z

: D

2007-05-12T15:22:50Z

stats upload! everyday im closer to the goal.. well, at least i hope!

5'2 - 156cm

CW 108 - 48.5kg
LW 96 - 46kg
HW 126 - 56kg
GW 94-95 pounds - 43kg

yesterday's intake -> Horrible 600kcal

sayusofi @ 2007-05-10T11:50:00

2007-05-10T19:00:44Z

well, i skipped breakfast and lunch yesterday coz i had to go to a dinner.. i also went to the gym and burned about 300kcal. so, i went to the dinner and i ate, Very Much.
Then i took 5 pills of laxatives.

My bf gave me a box of chocolates(what is he thinking!??) i ate 2 lil ones and i gave the 28 left ones to my mom, haha.
so i did really bad yesterday.

today i havent eat anything so far, and im not going to!! i have to loose 10 pounds in 17days!!
im posting a pic of me and some thinspo!

xoxo

fuuuuck!!

2007-05-08T22:27:53Z

grrrrrrrr fuuuuckkkk!!! i totally messes up today!

everything was going Perfect until i got home and i walk into the kitchen.. yeah i know im a failure..

B- 1 light cookie 60kcal
L- skipped
D- 2 chicken crapes with white souce
4 lil pieces of chocolate

i just took 3 laxatives pills.. what the hell did i do? NOW I CANT FAST TOMORROW COZ I HAVE A DINNER I HAVE TO EAT!
FUUUUCKKK!!

Plan!

2007-05-07T03:02:50Z

This is my plan this week.
Monday - Fast (low-cal fruit juice allowed)
Tuesday - Fast (``)
Wed - Only dinner (coz i have a important dinner i have to go)
Thu- Fast( low-cal juice)
friday - I will try to fast but i never can on fridays :S

wish me luck!

HW- 126
CW - 109
GW - 92
Height - 5'1

sayusofi @ 2007-05-03T22:00:00

2007-05-04T04:03:45Z

ugggh not ana related but there is a website where u can post things about anyone u want(everybody in my highschool and other highschools goes into thats stupid page), and i found like 50 posts where i was called a SLUT, Plastic, MATERIAL girl and only $$$ in my brain..

ugggg why? i cried a lil.. well, i shouldnt care right?

do u consider this as a binge?
B-Diet Bread, Ham, super small piece of cheese, Milk tea = 150
L- Carrot Juice 40kcal
S- Milk coffee 40kcal
D- 2 cups of milk tea, lettuce = 100

so thats 330kcal and i did some chew n spit so lets say 400kcal.

i feel like i did fuckin terrible. specially breakfast. im Fasting tomorrow:D

sayusofi @ 2007-05-02T22:17:00

2007-05-03T04:27:31Z

im happy today! now my CW is 109pounds! 49kg!

this illness that we r going through makes me feel soooooooo sad sometimes. but at the same time i think that 'this' is the only way i'd get as skinny as i want to. so im not stopping this.

today i found out that some guys think that me and my girls are a bunch of superficial cold hard sluts. especially me coz im the oldest and the "leader" according to them.
PLUS i have a 20yrs old bf with a boxster. so.. im a Slut.
ugggg why cant life be perfect...

sayusofi @ 2007-04-29T22:14:00

2007-04-30T04:22:45Z

today, at 10am i walked for like 30min, then i ate a bite of cheese, a bite of chicken ham and a lot of water. at 4pm my mom made spaggeti and i just could not resist it. i tried to puke but couldnt..
uggggggggg after that i walked for 2hrs. at 9pm i ate A LOT again, i just had 3 power bars, ham, cheese, papaya with yogurt.. whats happening to me?? im disgusting, seriously, im disgusting!

i cried a lot today.. coz my mom talked with me about being normal and healthy. she told me that tomorrow we can go buy the food i wanna eat. but i didnt do anything but cry in front of her. coz i know she wont understand that i dont wanna eat anything. i guess im not growing up according to her plan.

How can i stop eating at night??

thinspo!! will i look like them someday?

2007-04-28T04:31:59Z

some thinspo to motivate myself!!
i hope, i really hope that i will look like them someday. hopefully soon.

kisses

happier

2007-04-28T04:13:35Z

i just came back from the restaurant.
i ate, but i donno why i feel happier.
I took an over-dosis of laxatives like 10min ago.
i might die coz of a STRONG STOMACHACHE tonight. if i dont, i will go run early morning. and i have to study really hard for the stupid SAT..

i will work harder this weekend coz i got to weight 100 pounds in 2 weeks.(-11pound)

think thin

xoxo

terrible day!

2007-04-26T03:10:31Z

uggg, today was a bad day..
first of all.. when i woke up, my mom told me that she had a nightmare..
and i was like...
uh huh?? about what? ...
and she says, I had to take u to the hospital coz u could not move.. and u were so skinny like girls in africa!! (she was all serious)
i started laughing but i wanted to shoot myself coz guess what happened after that!
UGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG! yeap, i had to have breakfast..(papaya with yogurt)

and after that at school, i sent a SMS to my sis asking her if she wants to go to he gym with me after school..
but she replied me "No coz u dont eat healthy"... grr whateveer
idkk, but u know what was waiting for me when i came back from school??
FOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOD... i was forced to eat it in front of my mom.. i could have made a Big Drama but i dont want to go to the psycologist or treatment(coz my mom would take me) so i ate it.. (mushrooms, Turkey, beans, bread...)
it was soo sad coz i was in a liquid fast and i was doing pretty good..what a tragedy.. seriously.. im soo sad...!

anyways, i will post some of my favorite thinspo and a picture of me..(im the one with zebra short pants)

xoxo girls!

random pics of me

2007-04-25T03:58:43Z

crazy weekend

2007-04-25T02:55:37Z

last weekend i went to the beaaaaach with some friends!!!! it was very very fun!!!
the first night we escaped from our room and we started drinking vodka(from the bottle)and we were hyper and really happy until my best friend got entoxicated.. she could not speak, walk, talk nor stand up. she throw up everything(i envied her coz of that)
we had to take her into the room(2 friends and I) and wash her, take her cloth off, put her pajama on.. It was HAARD.. but fun! lol

and i didnt do well at the beaach.. we went to subway twice.. one time i ate salad and the other time i ate a sandwich.. and i ate Doritos and those stupid snacks for fat ppl!

but yesterday(i took laxatives) and today, i have been doing well!! liquid fast!!
today i drank..
B-Cocoa with skimmed milk (25 + 40 )
L-Kern's light (50kcal)
Snack- lil bit of liquid yogurt (25)
Dinner- Ginger Ale light

stressed

2007-04-19T23:20:10Z

today wasnt a really GOOD day.. tomorrow im going to the beach with some friends!! great opportunity to loose weight coz there is no time to eat in the beach! lol

B- 2pieces of crackers(40kcal) cottage cheese(20kcal)
In School- 5 bottles of water, kellogs bar (90kcal)
L- Piece of beef steak(90kcal) 2 white part of the boiled egg, LOT of onion,jelly
D- Tea

i think thats about 380kcal total!

im going to the gym now!

i will post some pics when i come back from the beach

xoxo

About Me

2007-04-18T00:01:55Z

i forgot to introduce myself haha

My name is Sayuri(pronounced the way its written)

Im half Japanese, half costarican and lil bit of italian.

Im 17yrs old, a Junior!
I speak Japanese, English and Spanish.
I was born and raised in Tokyo.
Currently living in Costa Rica! (its Very beautiful and relaxing over here;)
Im going to an private american international school
I love to partyyyy!
I love to DANCE DANCE
i LOOVE boys(good boys..well i donno, sometimes bad boys hahah) :D Lol
I love friday and saturday hahah who doesnt?
I love sleeping.. Sleep overs! hahah
Im crazy about fashion
I love the BEEEACH! and surfer boys haha
I act like a nerd infront of teachers :S
I hate wannabes
I hate gossips about me
i hate when someone talks shits about my friends
I love my fam and my girls
SHOPPING is the BEST
i think im Very trustful.
hate sluts and easy girls pists me off
i say and do VEry Stupid things sometimes
ALWAYS Friends Before Boys!
I hate my ex-boyfriends hahaha
My ex-boyfriends hate me Lol
i love modelling
i like to try to extreme-over a loser with my friends haha
I like reading books, learning about world history(this is where my nerdie things comes out)

hmmmm i think thats all.... hahah